Sloth

I am naturally lazy. It’s something I have been fighting against most of my life. I would love nothing more than to sit on my couch and binge watch or binge read anything instead of focusing on the things I think are important in my life. This usually happens when I am depressed which granted happens way more often than I would like.

Recently, maybe the past few to five years, I have been working on myself, physically, artistically, hopefully, mentally…and I am recognizing why I tend towards laziness. It’s less stressful than keeping a schedule. I have so much anxiety trying to complete my daily tasks I have set for myself, it’s crazy. I know that these things I am doing every day are good for me but I am beginning to think I need to figure out why I am feeling so overwhelmed even though I know I have enough time for all of them.

So, I have been trying to embrace the lazy lately by setting aside time just for myself without any pressure to do anything unless I feel like it. I want to write… okay. I want to draw… okay. I want to binge watch Gravity Falls again… okay. I want to walk instead of run… okay but don’t be mad at yourself about it (this one is a big one lol). I don’t want to cook… okay. I don’t want to write… okay. I don’t want to play the ukulele… okay. No judgement. No anxiety. Even though there is always judgement and anxiety because we wouldn’t be human if we don’t flagellate ourselves for the things we AREN’T doing.

I hadn’t intended to continue the cardinal sins this week but it seemed like a good topic to cover. I should have some new publications coming out next week and some new art at Flash Frog too! Still sending out them good vibes for some more nominations!!