When Will I Love Running?

I started running, or mostly walking really fast with a few steady runs during the week, around the end of May. My goal was to walk or run for thirty minutes every day. I have been able to keep to that goal which I am actually pretty proud of, but…

I hate running. I really do.

I don’t know when I started disliking it. Maybe when I became a teenager? Boobs aren’t great for running and sports bras hadn’t really become a thing until after high school.

I do know that I loved to run as a kid. It was exhilarating.

I thought that if I loved it so much as a kid maybe I could capture that feeling again. I am still waiting for it.

My motivation was a lot of self-loathing and Zombies, Run.

The self-loathing got me to run for thirty minutes straight. Zombies, Run kept my head in the game to run 5K without stopping.

I have been doing this for almost four months. I have seen a difference in my body. I figured running was the fastest way to drop weight and tighten up and that’s definitely happening. So much so that self-loathing isn’t my number one motivator. Now, it’s just continuing the story on Zombies, Run.

I still hate running though. Every time I get on the treadmill I wonder will this be the time I will actually love it.

I think maybe when I lose more weight and I am not struggling so much to increase my speed I might start to not hate it so much.

Until then, I will just keep doing it.