Am I a poser? Living with mediocrity.

I think we all suffer from impostor syndrome in some form or other. It's definitely a common topic in my blog postings.

I always feel as if I don't really merit the acceptances and publications that I have received. I also constantly feel like a one trick pony. I try to write other stories in other settings but I always come back to my comfort zone of the Big Island and my own childhood. I know that it's possible to take that and transfer it to other settings, to other characters, but I haven't been very successful. I literally have an entire short story collection set in my town that I wrote and have tried to edit but it just seems like silly garbage.

I feel mediocre. I feel like a poser, constantly.

Nothing adds to this feeling more than staring frankly at yourself naked in a full length mirror. Seeing the life you lead written on your own body. Knowing that no matter what you do or say or accomplish, this is the thing people will see and comment on.

My life is pretty boring. I go to work. I go home. I watch TV. A lot. That's probably the reason why I don't write as much as I should.

I need to stop feeling like my work or myself doesn't matter. I need to stop thinking that I am an impostor.

As we all know, that's easier said than done.