Imposter Syndrome
So I just recently finished rereading American Gods by Neil Gaiman. It’s a really great book. It hits my need for myth tied into everyday life as well as the quintessential road trip story. Of course, I started reading it because I have been blown away by the tv show on Starz.
I follow him on facebook and twitter, and he reposted his reddit interview to clarify an oft misquoted bit about his feelings about being an imposter. This struck a particular chord with me. Granted what he meant by being an imposter is slightly different from the meaning I took away from what he posted.
I always feel like an imposter. I always think that the people who publish my stories will soon discover what a fake and a fraud I am. I know that this is irrational. I know that it’s just my own head playing tricks on me, but it’s hard to escape the self-doubt. The funny thing is I know for a fact everyone struggles with this no matter what it is they are doing. There was always the idea of how when we were young all of the adults looked so responsible, so accomplished, so adult…and I look at my life and go my god they were totally faking it all along. I still feel like that kid, and I think most of still do.