Now here is the crux of my writing life right now... I have time to write. A whole day is free to do with as I choose and I choose not to write.

It could be that I would rather read, or play video games, or watch TV.

So I choose to feel the guilt of not writing, then to actually write.

Why do I do that?

I actually have a self-appointed deadline for a project I have been struggling with since March and I still can't force myself to write it. I can't seem to get myself to just work on it at all.

I think if I were to be honest with myself... I am afraid to work on it and fail miserably. I am afraid that I am not really that good of a writer and this project will just prove it to me and the world.