How’s everyone doing today?

I know for a lot of my US friends you are in the middle of, have finished, or will start your holiday filled with whatever it is you do on this day. In the past, I would host a big shindig at my place but I haven’t since the pandemic, and to be honest, it’s a relief. Even a small to do for just me and mine seems like too much.

Everything seems like to much.

This past year, I have been feeling like I don’t want to do a damn thing, and I’m starting to wonder what’s going on with me. I don’t want to cook or clean or play the ukulele. Most of the time I don’t even want to write. I’m surprised I have even written anything or gotten published this year given how I have been feeling.

Even my routines are starting to fray. I’m not working out as much as I used to and it’s starting to show with weight gain and bad health reports. I know that something needs to change but I just don’t have it in me right now. Probably need another break. Why don’t we take more breaks? Why don’t I take more breaks?

Perhaps it’s a fear of feeling left out? It all feels like I’m not doing enough… whatever enough is.

Just gonna take it one day at a time, and see how I feel in a couple of weeks… could be hormones, who knows.

So I choose to be positive and grateful now (thank you for making it this far down my maudlin post) and celebrate my recent pubs in Craft and Pinch! If you haven’t read them yet, here are the links:

• Sacrament,” “Living on Stilts,” and “Oh my god your voice sounds so haole

• to da lady who stay looking down her high makamaka nose at us

I also found out that Craft nominated my pieces for Best Microfiction so I will also be grateful for that as well. They should be announcing it soon so I will formerly celebrate with them on the socials.

I’m grateful to you my friends. I hope you stay safe and have a wonderful holiday, weekend, whatnot. Sending light, love and as always, creativity.